My Way of Thinking

Well, I have a partner for life. About a week ago, I fall in love with this special little lady from north America "at least that’s what I know". So briefly, after about thirty minutes of quick thinking, I decided to take her home and call her Gabrielle. But things hasn’t as easy as I thought it would be, she’s so needy, every time I left her for work, she’d cry out so loud that I just couldn’t bare to left her, even when I just wanna to take a shower…

But I should, people said it’s "tough love".
She would poop and pee anywhere she wants..
It smells, really smells.

She’s a SIBERIAN HUSKY, originally from Siberia, her kind grow bigger in number in ALASKA.
That’s why she has this beautiful GRAND layer of beautiful black and white fur.
Supposedly, she used it to protect her from the harshness of the north American winter..

She lives with me now, It really is like I am having a baby..
Constantly needs my care and attention..
But I know that someday she’ll be a great company for Jogging hehehehe..

Do U believe in The Secret?
That life will bring U whatever U put Ur mind and energy into?
As ridiculous as it might seems. I actually believe it. Looking back, every single bad things that have happened to me, it seems like I am the one that make them all happened because I think about it too much.
Even though it is hard to change a habit that has grown within me for more that 20 years, I try to focus on things that I want. Maybe It is just me, but I start to think that life has become more agreeable to me ever since.

What’s next??
That is the question that sometimes terrified me up to my weakest point.
It’s been a while since I graduated and that phrase keep haunting me. I feel stressed by it. I remember that last time, I wrote about having difficulties to finish my studies in my beloved Department of French. Well, somehow I overcome that problem which I finally resolved with a very satisfying output; I passed my own standard.

But then comes the haunting self- questioning phrase "What’s next??". Life as we all know it, got to start all over again. And in my case; it really is all over again.

I am not bragging about my problems. All I want to do is to share my feelings because at the moment I am still waiting for calls back for hundreds of my resumes that I’ve sent..

My wallet`s getting more and more thin these days, and yet I still manage to spend it for useless things and stuffs as I always do…

Well then, hopefully things are going to change for the better anytime soon…
God Bless…

I have finished all my class…and i’m as close as two side of a coin from graduation, and i know exactly what it takes or what to do with my "memoire"…Mais je n’arrive jamais à le faire serieusement…I feel like i’ve lost mind, trapped between my own thought that scared me with the fact that i’m gonna be completely independent…and take a full responsibility of my self…

So i’m stuck…and lost my desire to finish it…i know that somehow i have to do it, and also somehow, i know i’ll do it…but then the dateline is killing me. If i want to be "throned" as a graduated student, i’ll have to finish it ten days before 25th of November, which is the day of the "Thronification"

So…somebody please help me. Say something so that i could have "The Drive" back and do it fearlesly, happly, enthousiastically, or whatever others adverbs (the positive one) destinated for a good spirit…

Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strength of just "I can"
Has brought together people of all nations

The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream